Finding More

            Thursday the 26th of September 2024, Maia was admitted to St. Louis Children’s Hospital due to an illness making it difficult for her to breath. Thankfully, she kept her stats up for the most part and only needed a max of one liter of oxygen for a bit. She was given multiple albuterol treatments which helped, but they went ahead and brought in pulmonary because we had wanted to see them anyway and just because of the history and a lot of the respiratory therapist that saw her were concerned with asthma.

            When pulmonary got her history and I explained different concerns I had at home with her breathing, they decided to go ahead and diagnose her with asthma. It is also prevalent on my husband’s side and a couple of my family members have it as well, so we were not that surprised. It is just more on my plate to take care of. Now she must have two breathing treatments daily as a preventative and when sick or seeming like she is having a flair up she will have to have albuterol. Now I am not complaining about everything I must do, because I must do it all to keep her alive and healthy.

            I would not trade my daughter for anything. She is a light in my world. Both girls are, Maia just takes more energy to keep up with in terms of remembering medications, appointments, and therapy exercises. I can easily get overwhelmed due to the amount of brain power it requires. Do not think that I am strong because I do everything I do, I am strong only because I must be for my girls. If I am not strong my girls do not have anyone to do what I do for them. Due to all of this I do not have time for myself.

            With each day I am finding spots between things for that time for myself though. If I did not, then I would still be in a depressive state. That is not to say I do not have bad days, because I do. I just want you to know that you find ways to make things easier on you and start to find holes here and there to take care of yourself. You find the light at the end of the tunnel to look towards to keep pushing. Just keep pushing and you will find something that works for you. Even when they find new information about what is troubling your child, there will be ways to make things easier on yourself.